Groups?

I think I'd really like to try some group therapy. Maybe it's time to speak to my friend about the Grow group she goes to? Maybe not right now, but just to find out more.

It's not often you ever see anything written about dysthmia, so I was pleased to come across this today, hence the post ...

"The symptoms you describe are accurate for dysthymic depression - mild constant depression interrupted by occasional serious episodes."

After that first session, I take a walk. It has become stunningly obvious that my noticeable traits of character - things I had put down to personal idiosyncrasies - are actually symptoms of depression: isolation, difficulty having relationships, feeling sad, rejecting affection.

I'm scared to read on though, in case she worries - like I do - that what you feel is inherent to your very personality and being, is described as bad or wrong by the medical professionals. Needing to be changed.

But changed into what? God only knows I'd love to have the answers to that and other such questions. I could have slayed **** yesterday when they were carrying on about knowing where their life and career were going. I'm just starting on that journey, trying to figure out where I want things to go, it's only just beginning for me. So, I don't think it's wrong that I don't have any answers just now. Or is it? Oh, I don't know, it's all horribly boring anyway, really.

So I'm nearly 33 and just beginning. At least I'm beginning again, and not still heading towards the end ...